20101106 - 20210815

 

原來提分手也是那麽痛的一件事。圖中的畫面就是跟他分手後的最後一個畫面，到最後我還是一個膽小鬼，都是由他來挂的視訊。

謝謝你到最後還是那麽溫柔，我提的分手反倒是由你來安慰我。是我不對，請你不要自責，不要等我，要記得幸福起來，因爲是我放開的手。即使我到最後都得不到我要的愛，那是我自取的，別爲我難過知道嗎。

十年的感情，要說不捨是不可能的。我以爲我已經準備的很妥當，但我哭的比我想象還糟糕，準備好要說的話在面對你時全卡住了。到最後我還是一個讓人不放心的小屁孩，真的好沒用。

謝謝你一直以來的愛，我有真正感受到。我們之間好像不需要言語都大概可以猜到對方在想什麽的地步了。你要活得好好的，我也會努力好好活著。你說，我們還會是朋友，我不是不愛你了，只是不想再繼續欺騙你。

謝謝你，真的，謝謝你。如果還有來世，愿我會是個更成熟的人。

十年 20101106 至 20210815

極樂寺一日遊

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帶著隨和的心態來觀光，沿路遇到的第一個乞丐第一次起了慈悲心小捐，並細語鼓勵一番。進入主廟發現一整排的乞丐後頓覺心神震顫，怎麼這麼神聖的地方會有那麼多這種人？認知裡廟是人們來求助的地方、求平安的淨土，偏偏坐著一排又一排需要幫助的乞丐，這偏差讓人反思。真的沒有人肯幫助他們嗎？還是他們不要自救？無從解答。勢單力薄，默默在心裡祝福他們。
只能說地方不重要，只要能生存，哪裡都能扎根。求神拜佛只是給心裡一個寄託，不自救神仙下凡也無力挽回。對別人善良要憑能力，對自己善良才是對世界善良。共勉

2018年9月頭 筆

Fear

Did a little experiment with my doggo. Well to be more specific she's not mine but my younger sister's. Anyway some background story about the dog, whenever it rains she'll start trembling, her breathing intensified, she'll scratch on your door if you let her outside, she'll try to climb over your bed when you're trying to sleep and constantly pace around and over you, not caring if her saliva is dripping on you or not. Well that's horrible. I couldn't stand it and let her outside so I could sleep. Noise is better than physical disturbance eh.
So it was raining this morning and I grasped the chance to figure out what is this doggo's problem with the rain once and for all. I followed her around, I asked her questions again and again, I tried different actions to see her changed reactions, like treating a crying baby you couldn't understand. I was devastated that technology today have so many different translators available on the market, why don't they have a doggo-to-human translator! Anyway in the end, I found out that she was actually afraid of the thunder, instead of the rain itself. She was anticipating thunder whenever it rains, you know, no rain no thunder. So I tried to simulate thunder by playing some YouTube video that I could get my hand on, of course the quality was not at all on par with the real deal, (not the video quality but my phone, mind you) at the same time comforting her that it was alright, and what do you expect! She gradually calmed down and me a happy boi.

If I had started this experiment I wouldn't have to suffer for so many years, looking back.

Choices & Probability

What are choices? We make choices every single day, hundreds, thousands, millions of them. Even the cells in our body makes choices all the time, albeit it's a simple one between a yes and no, every single one of them.

Sometimes we think we have no choices at all, or that we only have a single choice, that is to do or die. Even die itself is a choice. But in reality, is that really true? Choices are those that present themselves at that particular time and situation, in our best ability of understanding affected biologically or psychologically. However the truth is, we have unlimited amount of choices that we can make to deal with the situations at hand, just that we aren't AWARE of them.

真心魔相 The Truth

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殺青！哈哈 三個星期後說這個會不會有點遲啊 ？😅
這是小弟我處女演出（處男？）等影片出了還要大家多多支持，大大力給他分享出去！（鞠躬 咁謝）

Throwback to my virgin acting role, please support me when the film is out! 😎 Thanks! 🙏

#真心魔相 #thetruth
#爸呀我在這 #跟王祖藍合照耶

接下來的內容會比較囉唆，大家可以選擇忽略不讀，只要記得到時候幫幫就好了（再次鞠躬）

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一個早餐的啓發

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吃著早餐時朋友掉了10仙在地上 然後趕忙攔住坐在旁邊的媽一直念說 只是10仙而已 10仙而已 38次吧
心裡想說 可能你覺得10仙一文不值 也不至於宣告并強調加催眠那麼多次吧

听。感。歌 4 光良

生平的多个第一次，

不经意地让光良给夺走。
记得那时候听着听着， 就不由自主地眼泪盈眶。
那道泪光与光良的声线私奔，从此天籁般的声音是他的专署名词。
这是，当初说好的约定，多年以前的事情了。

我们的故事 by 光良
作曲：光良
作词：伍阿冰

听着歌，看着MV，那年失踪已久的童话王子顿时回到我大脑里。
一样的剧情，一样的情感，一样的天籁声音，却多了岁月精心细腻渗入肤内的描绘。人类粗犷的手工怎能比得上？
这位王子，叛逆了童话故事，变成大王了。
其实多年前这预兆已蠢蠢欲动，当一直看着这王子得不到心爱的公主，心却迟迟不肯相信。
时间真是不留人哪…

可能那幼年的心坚信童话故事会降临在当初的王子身上，泪光才不肯回娘家
光良还保有一份王子的帅气


Time and tide wait for no man.

我不是阳光男孩

避免走在太阳底下

并不是讨厌。
而是晒了后，在身上留下的斑马线才惹人厌。
并不是怕黑。
反而想晒桐点，这样才显得健康一些，吧。
今年新年期间亲戚朋友都纷纷说我好白，心里想说比较贴切点是苍白。
自己做过什么事情，不苍白，还会是什么啊。自己懂就好。
能保温、够厚不透光、保护肌肤、在太阳底下晒皮肤照旧变黑，这样的衣服一现世，我一定排第一位抢购。有多少买多少！
热爱阳光，桐色肌肤，整天在太阳底下活动；这样的阳光男孩才能好好地被我体现出来啊！

心里还是有少许感恩亲戚朋友的表扬啦
要我排第一位，衣服价格方面当然要有所保留，tolong please

Enjoy the adventure of natural pigmentation

附加：我家乡食物广场Eupe的Pancake，向来都是我的最爱。
久没尝了，晚餐再好好品味，还是特爱。